Trust

poetry from me to you

How do destroy something that can’t be touched by your hand,
Something you can’t see and that’s complex to understand.
You can break it and bend it in so many different ways.
It can’t be really truly mended in a moment or few days.
It can be patched up in some time with some faith and love
But it can’t completely be fixed, not even by angels above.
You need to work to earn it and never just expect it.
It can be given freely and you must try to accept it
You were scared this would happen and you’d be alone.
How does it feel now I’ve been crying on the phone.
You made the nightmares come true
And you broke me.
So do you feel that all your hard work helped you see. 
We could have still been perfect, we could have been good. 
I always trusted you…

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What do I do?

I’m trying to mend the cracks of my broken heart.
I wish I had of known from the very happy start.
I was happy not knowing some lovers never do.
I keep uncovering lies, lies I thought to be true. 
Words that passed your lips, I drank in every word.
Stupidly I believed them, every thing I heard.
I can’t believe that it’s not at all my own fault.   
What made you think of thinking that evil thought.
The thought that broke my heart so very badly.
The action that started it, did you do it gladly?
Did you do it with a smile, a smile on your face?
Was it what she looked like, was it just the chase?
Why am I not enough? What did I do so wrong?
Did I scare you off when I played you our song?
How many texts, how many calls, photos exchanged?
Did I not deserve to know your feelings had changed?
There’s so much more that I am too scared to say.
I wish my feelings would stop, even just today.
Just one day without pain, one day without tears.
One day without trying to hide all my fears.
You don’t get to be sad, I don’t feel sorry for you.
I gave you my love, I gave my all and I was true.
What an idiot, how stupid, I should have known.
You want forgiveness for the seed you’ve sown.
You tell me you are sorry, that you are trying for me.
I wish we could swap places and then you’d see. 
You’d no longer feel sad, you’d appreciate it all.
You’d be faithful and honest and I’d continue to fall.
But now its all done, it won’t ever go away.
I never thought it would be you who’d stray.
A real gent with a nice job, a respectable man.
I still haven’t made my decision, this wasn’t my plan.
I don’t know if we’re right, do we try to fix my heart.
Its killing me that our life is sadly falling apart.

frommetoyou

forever scarred

I’m not sure I can take this, I want the pain to go away
I worry every day if you will leave me or will you stay
I have cried at least a thousand tears from my eyes
How could I’ve been so fooled by your sweet disguise
Your face tells me that you love me and you will forever
But you lie to me on the phone and when we’re together
I try to hide my feelings and make you think it’s better
But my pillow and my face just keep getting wetter
The wise couples say you have to work at true love
I thought we fitted perfectly like a hand in a glove
I thought this was my life sorted, that we’re meant to be
You were making plans and they didn’t include stupid me.
You haven’t broken my heart you have broken my life.
I thought we’d being living together as hubby and wife.
I want to go back to when I was happy and didn’t know,
I want it to be like the happy X and X’s love show
Why didn’t you hide it, did you just not care enough
This is the hardest time of my life, It’s unbearably tough
How could you do those nice things like my birthday surprise
I look at your face and your sweet little twinkly eyes
I can’t believe the pain you’ve caused, it feels like hell
You were my god, I worshipped you, anyone could tell
I need this to go away. I can’t deal with this terrible pain
I’m trying hard to close my heart so it won’t happen again.
I thought you loved me, you truly swept me off my feet
You cared for me when I was sick and cooked us food to eat.
Why did you do it all, why did you pick delicate me
You’ve destroyed me Baby and it’s very plain to see
My heart feels like it’s missing and it’s left my broken soul
Where there used to be a heart there is a deep black hole.
I have done it in the past to others but it wasn’t the same
I feel like I loved you too much, it’s me I have to blame
Why was I so stupid, such and idiot to just believe
I had ignored the gut feeling that you’d soon deceive
You deceived me, your Princess, the one you held at night
I’m broken, but with no tears now when you hold me tight
Your face was going to be the one I’d forever wake up to
Now it’s the face that will forever make me so blue
I remember your kisses, how you touched my long hair,
How I’d look away sometimes when you caught me stare
You were my world Baby, you were always the only one
You always said I’d be your Princess and we had such fun.
Now it’s like I don’t know you, I don’t know you at all
I thought you’d always catch me every time I’d fall.
You were my superhero, you came and found my smile
I thought we’d be forever, not just a for too short while.
I used to dream I had cheated, I’d wake up in a sweat
I never knew it would be you, on that I’d never have bet
I can’t live without you, I’ve built my world around you.
How could I be so wrong, I thought your love was true.
I’m in a million pieces, they are scattered on the floor
I don’t think I can go on, I just can’t take it anymore.
What do I do to make it better, how can I get to sleep
These fears surround my head and hurt me so deep.
I’m trying, I’m really trying, I’m trying so very very hard
But there’ll always be a mark on us, we’re forever scarred.

Stay

So it’s late and it’s bedtime, the time I start to think,
The only things in my bed are teddy and my drink.
It’s rather lonely in my room for one, single bed,
But there’s one thought that always soothes my head.
It’s you and me forever, happy we will always be.
Just hold my determined hand and you will soon see.
We can make it work, the angles sweetly told me so.
Stay with me my baby and our love will only grow.
You make my soul smile every single night and day.
The only time I’m sad is when you ever go away.
I need you with me always to gently hold my hand.
You make me who I am, I hope you understand.
I couldn’t live without you, you are my number one.
It would be like the universe losing every single sun
The stars are all suns, Im not sure you did really know.
It’s the warmth and chemistry that makes them glow.
You are my very own sun and my own guiding light.
The moment I laid eyes on you I knew it was right.
The planets may change orbit or turn a different way.
But I will always love you and with you I’ll always stay.
You might be laughing at my science reference now,
But somethings change and we never wonder how.
I’m asking you to trust in me and my loving heart.
I knew you were the one right from the very start.

Trust

How do destroy something that can’t be touched by your hand,
Something you can’t see and that’s complex to understand.
You can break it and bend it in so many different ways.
It can’t be really truly mended in a moment or few days.
It can be patched up in some time with some faith and love
But it can’t completely be fixed, not even by angels above.
You need to work to earn it and never just expect it.
It can be given freely and you must try to accept it
You were scared this would happen and you’d be alone.
How does it feel now I’ve been crying on the phone.
You made the nightmares come true and you broke me.
So do you feel that all your hard work helped you see.
We could have still been perfect, we could have been good.
I always trusted you and never thought you would
I never thought you’d think of it or do this at all
You make me feel sick and depressed and so small.

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Hard times are a test

Remember always that all hard times are a test.
You begin to appreciate when your mind was at rest.
They show what we are made of and what’s inside.
Maybe you want to tackle them or run away and hide.
All you need is love is what wise people always say.
The way you view the world can change in a day.
You need one person to love you and have your back.
To put you back together and mend every tiny crack.
I always follow my heart in every decision I make.
I let it decide on every single risk I want to take.
So I’m trusting you with my heart forever more.
I couldn’t live without you, your the one I live for.
I don’t want words, I only want actions from now on.
So please help me prove to my heart its never wrong.
I believe in us, I always knew you were the right one.
I love how we play and kiss and always have fun.
The little moments we share mean so much to me.
I live for our Weekends and how we are meant to be.
Its hard right now, but we will soon  be stronger.
So hurry up, I want 100%, I can’t wait any longer.